Wondering how I have dropped out of face of this earth?
Working on case study presentation, monthly protocol, makeup work for the time I was in Boston, few other places and Japan, then … there’s the year-end presentation.
If we are demanded 6 hours of work a week towards this certification, I have about 40 hours of makeup. Shutter to think…and the irony of it all to scrape away at the sleep pattern to study and digest. When I signed up for this program, little did I know that there’s so much afflictions in this world. How grateful I should be that here, I am given the fully intact faculties to learn – No challenges other than for this distracted mind and … that of time and energy which are the two variables we always must manage.
I’m presentation-ed out. All this for a certification one does not know if it even gives you the means to make a living … but I guess it never was. It’s not for making a living but appreciating the living. Caring for the living. So how does one procrastinate? Facebook, Instagram (don’t do it but), Netflix – other interests abound. In this modern world, there’s enough to keep you distracted and off the track when ego is in the forefront. When all is performance, achievement based or money and ego-driven, there are many who lack the resilience to rise above. What am I talking about? Lack of focus, distractions, disintegration of mind from body and lost souls.
On a more practical everyday level, I was told from a client that she sensed divisiveness, separations and … this pervasive anxieties everywhere today.
So when we have presentations, many have butterfly in their stomach – and it’s common and normal tension we all share – but for some …it’s all out anxieties and panic attacks. Sometimes it’s triggered by some trauma; sometimes it’s something else but it’s worth exploring a way to cope.
I have experience from this as someone brilliant I know once was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. It was sad to see the brilliance be dimmed by this crippling ailment … SO I have learned from seeing how this young person, still developmental, transformed from that one of avoidance and running away to today’s courageous warrior who is not afraid, living the life envisioned with eyes fully open and all senses – receptive. Fear no longer grips him. How did that happen?
Let me count the ways of how-to’s. Tools the young and the developmental can freely utilize in their toolkit to overcome obstacles. That obstacle oftentimes is oneself – the self. Whether it be low self-esteem or high-tension, or lost source-the self, all contributing to general anxieties in the day to day. At the root, there’s fear. To conquer.
I will be going over prescription for the common anxieties and stress as it relates to just Public Speaking & Presentations in the next post as I have mastered it through trials and errors. To stand before you with authenticity and ease.
Ahh…I have to go back to work – till then. Happy “putting yourself out there”.
Love the idea of a yoga cave in Santa Barbara:) it’s an underground cave without the anxieties over lack of fresh oxygen. All are imbued in soft glow of Himalayan salt lamps. Beautiful memory.
