{"id":7406,"date":"2015-02-09T23:37:30","date_gmt":"2015-02-10T07:37:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/wagayoga.com\/blog\/?p=7406"},"modified":"2015-03-30T13:09:23","modified_gmt":"2015-03-30T20:09:23","slug":"in-the-twilight-zone-fuzzy-but-real","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/wagayoga.com\/blog\/yoga\/in-the-twilight-zone-fuzzy-but-real\/","title":{"rendered":"In the twilight zone &#8211; fuzzy but real."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/wagayoga.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/Sleeping_Pill_Healthblog_02.gif\"><img loading=\"lazy\" src=\"http:\/\/wagayoga.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/Sleeping_Pill_Healthblog_02.gif\" alt=\"Sleeping_Pill_Healthblog_02\" width=\"386\" height=\"257\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-8799\" \/><\/a>\u3000from WSJ article <a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.wsj.com\/health\/2008\/03\/05\/sleeping-pill-use-rises-even-for-the-young\/\">link here.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Tonight was a twilight zone in the making.  When I mentioned how miserable I was with this jet lag state, my sister texts me to just take sleeping pills. What? We are pretty different. There is no way I am going to take sleeping pills just for a mere jet lag &#8211; after all, I am not a yogini for nothing.  I vowed to get over this misery with the naturalist cure &#8211; obviously yoga is the solution, the medicine.  I do not need any sleeping pill &#8211; but I decided I needed more than a self-practice and dragged myself into a pretty late class after a day of fighting the desire to just lie down, yawning and rubbing my eyes:)  <\/p>\n<p>Awhile ago, I found a yoga class that works for my schedule and it&#8217;s probably the latest class you can find &#8211; other than Bikram &#8211; and what a relief to find that the instructor is one I used to go to before I got hooked and became an instructor. Back when I belonged to Equinox, a heath club with decent yoga classes I attended his classes even though I normally avoid male teachers.  I rather go to female teachers for I figure women knows best women&#8217;s needs but it must have been a schedule thing &#8211; and so he was an exception &#8211; besides he seemed more compassionate than egotistical. Well &#8211; so I am looking for late classes and there he is again. I want to focus more on what I am doing than what the instructor is, so looked for a mat space far away in the back &#8211; really wanted to hide in the back row &#8211; only near the mirror as mirror is so refreshing, having done without it for so long.  It&#8217;s the only non-hot yoga class held this late &#8211; Not too surprised that it&#8217;s a packed class, with guys taking up the front center area &#8211; which seemed unusual for a yoga class &#8211; but then again, I think male practitioners probably feel the same way &#8211; they are more comfortable with their own kind:) as I do feel more comfort with sisters and aunties.<\/p>\n<p>In setting an intention this skillful instructor proposes the theme of &#8220;strength&#8221;.  Strength in character, strength of the physical kind, strength of will&#8230; So&#8230;uh, masculine&#8230; So unlike the soothing oozy stretchy floaty big sigh of relief and release of a lunar class, I really wanted &#8211; it&#8217;s the exact opposite &#8211; so it gets sweaty and heated&#8230;the kind of class when the instructor says, &#8220;if you want to make it more intense you can &#8230; option B from option A&#8221; and all students are type A&#8217;s and without exception, they all seem to take the intense option B rather than staying where they are at option A. Managed to live through it thinking how I need to &#8220;strengthen&#8221; my upper body strength as Chaturanga Dandasana for the umpteen time was humbling me. <\/p>\n<p>The twilight zone feeling is not from the more intense (maybe because there were more guys in this class?) solar practice (not my cup of tea in the evening but&#8230;) but the ending quote he shared (love) &#8211; So surprised because it was exactly the passage I was translating for fun and practice &#8230; of course all Murakami&#8217;s completed translations are readily available out there but&#8230;I would read the original and translate portions that I like for bilingual retention &#8211; to hear it coming out of this instructor&#8217;s mouth was &#8230; like &#8230; so &#8230; unexpected.  What just happened? I couldn&#8217;t believe my ears.<\/p>\n<p>\u30ab\u30d5\u30ab\u300c\u5f37\u304f\u306a\u3089\u306a\u3044\u3068\u751f\u304d\u6b8b\u3063\u3066\u3044\u3051\u306a\u3044\u3093\u3067\u3059\u3002\u300d <\/p>\n<p>Kafka (a 14 year old boy) &#8211; I can&#8217;t survive unless I become stronger. (that survival of the fittest pressures &#8211; so prevalent).<\/p>\n<p>\u3067\u3082\u305d\u3046\u3044\u3046\u751f\u304d\u65b9\u306b\u3082\u3084\u306f\u308a\u9650\u754c\u304c\u3042\u308b\u3093\u3058\u3083\u306a\u3044\u304b\u3057\u3089\u3002 <\/p>\n<p>Saeki-san (an older lady friend) &#8211; &#8220;Because you feel all alone. But isn&#8217;t there a limitation to that kind of living. You can&#8217;t surround yourself with walls to build strength.  In principal, the strong is always beaten by the stronger, then the strongest.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\u5f37\u3055\u3092\u58c1\u306b\u81ea\u5206\u3092\u56f2\u3044\u8fbc\u3080\u3053\u3068\u3082\u3067\u304d\u306a\u3044\u3057\u3001<\/p>\n<p>\u5f37\u3055\u3068\u306f\u539f\u7406\u7684\u306b\u3001\u3088\u308a\u5f37\u3044\u3082\u306e\u306b\u7834\u3089\u308c\u308b\u3002\u300d<\/p>\n<p>\u30ab\u30d5\u30ab \u300c\u5f37\u3055\u305d\u306e\u3082\u306e\u304c\u30e2\u30e9\u30eb\u306b\u306a\u3063\u3066\u3057\u307e\u3046\u304b\u3089\u3002  <\/p>\n<p>Kafka:  Strength itself has become a moral (or a goal).<\/p>\n<p>\u50d5\u304c\u6c42\u3081\u3066\u3044\u308b\u306e\u306f\u3001\u52dd\u3063\u305f\u308a\u8ca0\u3051\u305f\u308a\u3059\u308b\u5f37\u3055\u3058\u3083\u306a\u3044\u3093\u3067\u3059\u3002 \u5916\u304b\u3089\u306e\u529b\u3092\u306f\u306d\u3064\u3051\u308b\u58c1\u304c\u307b\u3057\u3044\u308f\u3051\u3067\u3082\u306a\u3044\u3002 \u6b32\u3057\u3044\u306e\u306f\u3001\u5916\u304b\u3089\u3084\u3063\u3066\u304f\u308b\u529b\u3092\u53d7\u3051\u3066\u3001\u305d\u308c\u306b\u8010\u3048\u308b\u305f\u3081\u306e\u5f37\u3055\u3067\u3059\u3002<br \/>\n\u4e0d\u516c\u5e73\u3055\u3084\u4e0d\u904b\u3084\u60b2\u3057\u307f\u3084\u8aa4\u89e3\u3084\u7121\u7406\u89e3\uff0d\u305d\u3046\u3044\u3046\u3082\u306e\u3054\u3068\u306b\u9759\u304b\u306b\u8010\u3048\u3066\u3044\u304f\u305f\u3081\u306e\u5f37\u3055\u3067\u3059\u3002\u300d <\/p>\n<p><strong>But the kind of strength I am seeking is not about winning and losing.<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>It&#8217;s also not about having strong walls to repel or defeat forces from the outside.<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>The kind of strength I want is the kind that accepts the outside forces,<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>then to endure them &#8211; that kind of strength I seek.<br \/>\n<\/strong><strong>To quietly endure unfairness, misfortune, grief, misunderstandings and mistreatment &#8211;<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>To quietly endure such things, that kind of strength.<br \/>\nI want to be strong so that I can endure all (pain).<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u300c\u305d\u308c\u306f\u305f\u3076\u3093\u3001\u624b\u306b\u5165\u308c\u308b\u306e\u304c<br \/>\n\u3044\u3061\u3070\u3093\u3080\u305a\u304b\u3057\u3044\u7a2e\u985e\u306e\u5f37\u3055\u3067\u3057\u3087\u3046\u306d\u3002\u300d<\/p>\n<p>Saeki-san &#8211; &#8220;That&#8217;s probably the most difficult kind of strength to acquire.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>************************************ by Haruki Murakami, Kafka by the Shore<br \/>\nAt the closing of this class, this instructor quoted about true strength being the ability to endure hardship &#8230; the exact quote from Haruki Murakami &#8211; it&#8217;s so so strange.  What a coincidence. Strange things happen when we practice endurance? So glad to find a late night vinyasa class &#8211; thank you Teacher K.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u3000from WSJ article link here. Tonight was a twilight zone in the making. When I mentioned how miserable I was with this jet lag state, my sister texts me to just take sleeping pills. What? We are pretty different. 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