I mentioned how I felt drained from my latest visit to Tokyo but my hometown is usually energizing … this exception is due to some key family members I hold dear were in one way or another deteriorating in general health. Some activities just sucks energy out of you and drains you whereas some activities gives you more energy – I try to calibrate a balance but there was a lot of the former – the negative energy – this time to offset and overcome. The toughest was a visit to the hospital where my aunt was undergoing chemotherapy. Met up in the hospital waiting room… After my aunt came out of her treatment and my cousin’s stop at the pharmacy for her medications, 3 of us had lunch afterwards in area of Tokyo called Azabu Ju-ban I remember from time when I was small at a restaurant we used to frequent.
Not fun to see someone once so vibrant and full of life so weakened BUT I am glad I visited. Besides, it’s been some time since someone expressed so much joy to see me (we need to adopt a puppy again for THAT feeling). It’s not depressing – it’s how it is, I told myself. No one lives forever and all things change – nothing is permanent. It was as though she was teaching me a lesson in life. I only wish I had been giving more of me; giving more of my time and energy…Imagine, she treated us for lunch. Even in her weakened state, she was still the giving one – I felt powerless and grateful at the same time.
Some people are fair weather friends and just-for-fun relationships – just temporary superficial friends – that’s alright – but some relationships are for keeps whether in rain or shine, whether in fair weather or rainy or even stormy. Life is about that – Nothing else really matters – it’s not number of years you live; not number of breaths you take but… it’s about enriching experiences and relationships, that are meaningful. In the end, that’s all you take with you.