Day: December 11, 2022

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Did not stop me ! Unlike Tokyo where good food is so accessible, one must travel to procure good food here in Northern California … rain or shine ! Felt as though I was risking my life … but my taste buds thanked me braving the road – yes, driving with white knucles. I wish I could just walk and walk and walk as I did in Tokyo.

No, luckily no car up in flames this time.

Post Thanksgiving soup was made for the family… surely- it’s Turkey soup.

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It’s wet and cold …

And I love walking in the rain 🙂

Sooo invigorating!

What just happened ?

So, I nearly died?

No this is not Hollywood – it’s on my drive home this weekend.

There was ominous black smoke ahead as I debated getting off the freeway as I made the approach towards the unknown.

Car is up in flames and there are no emergency vehicles – no sirens – no – nothing – so surreal !!!!!? Life in the day of USA.

I miss Japan. I miss my mommy 🙂 lol:)

Why?

To get to see my mom every day is a treat – miss her … and to justify my guilt here I am again.

“If she lived nearby I would see her at least once a week so that’s 4 times a month; 48 times a year.

So … I am going to see her at least 48 days a year to makeup. Best I can do for now though with 24/7 care, so little privacy… and I wish I had talked and listened to her before as I always wanted to write her biography. But oh no. She cannot be interviewed now as she will tease me she can’t remember. Why didn’t I do this 10 years ago. I’m tearing up.

With advancing but managed dementia symptoms, there are good days and bad days. I should feel lucky enough that this time too she remembered me. She knows who I am. Yes, I’m your daughter.

Miss the old-self mother … but I know she’s still there inside her.

She’s unable to go to a hair salon like before so her helpers braid her hair. She turned into a little girl- how’s that for a role reversal.